Dark roads

Dark roads
lead me on
all alone
further away
from where I've come

Every step I take
is forced by every mistake I make
Leading me into
the comforting silence
of the night

Shadows, deep treads
worn grooves in the road
by silent ones
who never again shall speak

my mind screams out
cursing the silence
the loneliness
and all the pain
that accompanies it in this
nightmarish sonata

I look down into a puddle
and see what I have become
Where are the smiles
the laughter, the joy of my beginning years?

they are gone now
lost forever
in the shadows of my heart

Long...long have
I traveled these roads
on the other side of this mirror
the mirror that is my life

Sometimes
this one way mirror cracks
so that some of me can escape
to enjoy the life I have

but the shadows are always there
taking shape and form
of biting words and stinging loneliness

and I retreat
to quiet dark roads once more
retreating...retreating......always... retreating